I Want to Explore!

Have you ever had that feeling- the feeling that something just isn't right?
Like when no matter what you do, even things you usually love, just dont cut it anymore?
No? Well I have.
And I must say, it's definately one of the worst feelings ever. Like my chest just has an empty, beating heart, where their should be an endless stream of imagination and creation.
In fact, I am getting one of those feelings right now. And for those of you who do get that feeling, I am going to let you in on the secret of how to get rid of it.
How? Well, first I will tell you how I fix these emotions, then tell you how you can too!

I first started feeling like this at the end of Nutcracker last year. I though it was depression, but after looking it up on yahooanswers, depression is actually a bit different.
Then, when winter break from dance was over and I was back in classes, the feeling went away.
The second time I felt it was when my first summer intensive (dance camp) was over. But when summer vacation was over, it went away. You may be noticing a theme here- whenever I'm not dancing, I get the feeling.
Not exactly.
I have these cousins who live in Illinois. They used to live in Chicago, and whenever we went to visit them, we would stay in the Hyatt downtown. Now, they live in a "nice" little suburb called Naperville, and when we go to visit them, we stay in there house and often don't even see the city at all.
Scratch that- the kids don't see the city- my parents, aunt and uncle go off to a fancy dinner and jazz (my favorite music genre) concert while leaving me at home to babysit three little kids. Every time.

So what I've discovered is that everyone has a little problem. It's a glitch, well I guess more of a trait, that every single human will experience at one time or another. I haven't really gotten down to the science of it yet, but what I do know is this: we all have something that we love. We love it so dearly that it is unobtainable.
For me, it's dance and the city. Dance is easy, but not living in the city, I get that feeling alot.

For some of you, the love will be easy to controll: video games, polyvore, reading, etc. For others, it could be harder, like my city: a deceased relative, a celebrity, or a seasonal sport.

Those of you with the easy "obsessions" will just need to do them whenever you get a feeling. But for the ones with difficult loves, do them as much as possible. Since this probably wont be that often, figure out something that reminds you of your love. For example, jazz (I dont know why) makes me feel like I'm actually not a victim of my parents stupid choice to live in Corntown.

I hope this helped you with those annoying feelings, and if you figure out what your obsession is, comment- I wanna know!

Peas,
Isabella